Asleep Under Toluca

asleepintoluca @ 2008-09-30T19:23:00

2008-10-01T02:25:13Z

I give up.

I'm just going to... Try to get by as best as I can. I'm tired, I'm hungry, my feet are swollen from walking, trying to figure a way out of here.

I'm done.

I'm going to die here, aren't I?

[Voice Post]

2008-09-23T05:51:55Z

Oh come on. Come on.
You have got to be kidding me.

~~Why am I so used to this? At least I can keep an eye on Harry.~~

Outside it's... I don't even want to step foot out there. We're stuck, completely...

I need something. A weapon. This is insane...

Well then.

2008-09-17T22:26:17Z

Color me surprised.

~~Still. All that work I did trying to break open that vent. Wasted.~~

I'll be napping if anyone needs me. Christ.

We need a plan.

2008-09-12T01:37:54Z

Come on... Everyone needs to-

Get a grip here. I think it'd be better if we all try to stay in one area. This place is disorienting...

I'm... going to try to find people. If you can, stay where you are and turn on a flashlight. Bring a blanket and any food you might have.

~~I don't know how much longer this will go on.~~

asleepintoluca @ 2008-09-07T14:40:00

2008-09-07T21:45:11Z

Oh no.

No

No.

Last night I thought it was a dream but-

The walls. The- It always leads me back to my room...

Huhm.

2008-09-05T10:53:08Z

It feels like it's getting so easy to become lost in here. Maybe I'm just going crazy but I swear this place is working against me.

I got a package...

2008-08-10T00:11:06Z

I got a package today...

The writing on the top said '14121', something crossed out, and 'James'.

The staff told me...

They told me the contents were safe. Said it came from a different mental hospital.

I'm afraid to open it.

I don't know who sent this.

What?

2008-07-11T06:54:37Z

What the...

What the hell is going on here? I don't know what I should-

~~What should I do? Nothing? I feel like I should be checking on someone... But there's nobody...~~

((ooc: Strikes are easily hackable, especially by staff.))

Restless dreams again.

2008-07-05T22:26:00Z

Writing my feelings is supposed to help, right?

Ever since I arrived here, everything has felt muted for me.

Like it's under water, or just distant enough to be out of my earshot. It's as if the people don't see me, and I am only half-aware of them. Could it be the medication they give me? I don't want this sleepy reality. It's as if there's a fog settled over the whole place and it swallows sound, light, even people's emotions.

I am in a constant state of feeling like something is wrong, like I've done so many of these things, seen so many of these people before. My dreams seem more like a reality than when I'm awake. I'm sleepwalking through each day- I can't even remember what I do- I'm looking in on myself. It doesn't feel like me. ~~It's someone else's atroci~~

Maybe I'm dreaming now, and that's really my reality? I can't wrap my mind around something like that.

~~Would I be better off dead?~~ Is this kind of life really even worth living?

Nothing is vibrant. It's all foggy and thin like strands of hair or a straining wire.

I-

Sorry. I got carried away. None of this really makes sense to me.

I'm trying, see? This is me trying.

2008-06-30T01:09:20Z

Okay. So I'm trying to write down my dreams, like they told me. When I remember them, that is.

I can only remember little bits and pieces. This isn't as easy as they make it seem. Last night I dreamed about that place again. I was on a roof I think. There was snow everywhere and another man.

I couldn't see his face, but he was big. Really big. He was walking towards me, and for some reason I was trying to escape. I'm not sure why I was running- I think he was trying to hurt me or something. Long, rust-colored hair- I couldn't see his face.

I had to run. But there was nowhere- I was on the edge and then I slipped and fell-

Thats when I woke up. Jumped awake. Typical falling dream, I guess. I'm not sure what it means.

It makes me anxious to talk about it, really.

Other notes: Met with Harry. That was nice.

It's strange here- I still can't tell sometimes- if I'm awake or sleeping.

asleepintoluca @ 2008-06-24T21:50:00

2008-06-25T04:52:24Z

Uh-

Someone? Hello? What's going on here? I can't- uh.

Hello? Doctors?

Uh- Hey- Harry, right? You okay, man? Hello?

Anybody?

Hm.

2008-06-19T22:36:37Z

I...

Still haven't been feeling so well.

Dreams again. Dreamed I was leaving some place- a different hospital. I feel so strange, it was like I'd been there before- but I haven't...

I was never- I don't remember much, really...

asleepintoluca @ 2008-06-03T12:39:00

2008-06-03T19:42:04Z

I could hear it.

Torture... I don't want to be t

This place...

01

2008-05-20T07:10:20Z

My...

Head hurts.

It smells like rust here.